Saw a fantastic korean movie I recommend to all. It's called tell me something and I have her hair! (Youll know who her is when you see it)
I cut my hair off in tradition of Japan.
When your heart is broken you cut it short, so I did.

Oh cant change that fast?
Hah.

Youll see.

Lets see. A fantastic first day back to school. But then tuesday came, I loathe people. I loathe school. I may drop out and get a GED. If the rumours are true... Ill have to have a chat with Virgo hobbit. You know my long drawling lectures? Yes.. one of those.

A little birdie told me she was trying to steal my man. I have warned her previously that if she did her brakes might happen to stop working and she may go toppling over a cliff to her doom. Though, I doubt Ill be this cruel in person with her, I have warned her of my jealous tendancies. I'm like dilandau. I even turned into a boy. I may chop off my hair, since, in Japan that represents your heart being broken. So say a boy asks a girl out and she rejects him he will shave his head. I just want Harry Potter hair, so no shave-of-the-head for me. But close enough.

I have been told by other little birdies that I should appologize and ask for a second chance, yet I fear that it may end up to what we had at the end there anyways. So why not just focus on becoming a singer and marrying Daniel Radcliffe? But that would mean dropping all forms of communication with him, including seeing him so I really would have to drop out of high school cause I see him ALL the friggin time.

Oh and it just seemed suspicious to me that when Virgo heard us coming out she walked away with him just before I had the chance to call to her. Just after that as well my birds told me things. And so it was very odd.

And lo, the reason I loathe people and high school. Such stupidity and silliness. Oh well. I will have my word with her. I doubt Ill ever find my courage to have one iwth him. But I dont need to. I can always become a singer and marry Daniel. I was gunna talk to him after second hour but I didnt see him. It was pouring all day. Though my heart has grown lighter since the dissapointment of my good friend stealing one of my romantic interests and my other romantic interest havingbroken up with me and my other good friend after him. I felt surprisingly lighthearted.

Today we did some intelligence thing in English and then presented it. It was boring so then I walked through the rain to my next class and Kesi was not there. So we sat around and chatted about drunk people. Ohhh how I loathe drunk people (we being Kurtis Ryan Me and Ashley, who has taken it upon herself to join our 'group') Well... Imma fill out this survey Courtney had in her DJ for jeeps... or whatever that phrase is.


*Name: Aya

*Nick Names: Aya

*Birthday: July 23

*Age: 16

*Some Words About You: I'm very arrogant, but jokingly so, I tend to smile alot.

WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?HP again and the wayfarer redemption

WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD It's a macromedia flash book.

WHAT'S IN YOUR CD PLAYER? LOTR TTT soundtrack

FAVORITE SMELLS? Tahitan Vanilla, this one blue teddy bear I got in california that smells sort of like wood and nag champa incense.

FAVORITE SOUNDS? The owls in the morning before sunrise. Music.

WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? The truest deepest feeling of heartbreak.

WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? Depends.. usually I wake up to smooth Jazz so I mock the smooth jazz dj in my head or f some song I know is playing I sing along or play along to it in my head (I have an array of musical instruments in there)

HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE?I am the lord of the rings.

IF YOU COULD CHANGE YOUR NAME, WHAT WOULD IT BE? Aya

FUTURE DAUGHTER'S NAME: Gideon

FUTURE SON'S NAME:Gideon

CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? Vanilla

DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST? ...no.

DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? A dog named Jenny who is surprisingly lifelike, a Hagrid plushie and a Mrs.Norris stuffed kitty.

PLAY AN INSTRUMENT? I can play anything in my head, but only my vocal chords out loud.

STORMS - COOL OR SCARY? Sometimes they make the tree outside my window scrape and lurch and thats scary but either than that, beautiful

IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE? Sean Bean or Daniel Radcliffe

FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? NONE

WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN? Cancer/Leo!

WHAT DO YOU DRIVE? Your mom.

DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI? Eiw.

IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED WHAT WOULD IT BE? Actress or singer.

EVER BEEN IN LOVE? Yes.

IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL? Who drank my water?!

FAVORITE MOVIES: Time and tide, spy game, lotr, harry potter, enemy of the state, k19

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? 19 and 24

FAVORITE TV SHOW? None.

*HAVE YOU EVER...

~Drank alcohol? Yes

~Broken the law? Yes

~Ran away from home? Yes

~Broken a bone? never

~Lied?: Yes.

~Cheated on a test? Yes.

~Played strip poker? No

~Skinny dipped? No

~Had a medical emergency? I dunno!?

~Gotten beat up? Nope.

*DO YOU BELIEVE IN....

~Love at first sight? Yes

~Luck? Yes

~God? Yes

~Aliens? I dun care.

~Horoscopes? Yes

~Ghosts? Yes

~Heaven? Ohhh baby do you know what that's worth? Oh heaven is a place on earth! They say in heaven lvoe comes first, who made heaven a place on earth? Oo heaven is a place on earth!

~Hell? My dog owns that place!

~Yourself? Nope

*WHICH IS BETTER....

~Coke or Pepsi? Mnt Dew

~Oranges or apples? Bananas

~One pillow or two? 3

~Deaf or blind? None, Id shoot myself if I was either.

~Pools or hot tubs? hot tub

*ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX:

~Honestly, what do you notice first? Hands. Clothes. Hair.

~Hair -- long or short? Either ^^

~What kind of things do you find romantic? Im not the romantic type I suppose.

~Thing you hate most about 'em? Thier hormones.

~Thing you love most about 'em? I have only found one boy with intelligence, that is what I love about him, the only thing I can honestly say i like about any guy...

~Turn ons? Hands, intelligence, If you are mentally bonded.

~Turn offs? ignorance, idiocy

*WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU....

~Took a shower? The day ebfore monday. I took a bath on tuesday.

~Cried? O... that was actually quite a while ago. Oh wait, no, I guess I cried of frustration at the dude at school. But weither than that its been months.

~Got a real letter? Rochie's xmas gift.

~Got drunk? Never

~Had sex? August 14th

~Went to the movies? Hmm over break sometime.

*WHAT IS....

~Your most prized and important possession? Id say my dog, but she isnt my possession... so.. It was Lehei, but I lost her... so.. The letter lubby sent me that AJ wrote.

~The item you worship most? The letter lubby sent me that AJ wrote.

~The worst song you've ever heard?Oh man! I know this one... but I forget -_-

~The most embarrassing CD in your collection? Im embarassed of none of my cds.

~Your bedroom like? large, with a bookshelf desk thing filled with Harry potter paraphanelia, a drwesser with lego hp stuff and a hp ornament on it, my bedspread is asianish and I have a mock tatami mat on my floor and I have a Harry Potter poster above my bed in which Daniel looks absolutely adorable

~The song that describes you best? The one that should be sang to me: "You're still you" byJosh Groban, the song that best describes me is...um.... Either samwise the brave or Evenstar on the lotr ttt soundtrack.

~The song that describes your life now? Samwise the brave!

~The song that describes your love life now? Oo.. um.... Nevermind... I dont really have a love life ><

~Your favorite thing for breakfast? Umm.... bacon XD

~Your favorite thing for lunch? Macayos.

~Your favorite thing for dinner? Macayos.

~The best thing that happened to you today? I went to claim jumper.

~The stupidest thing you've done? That's easy, but this is public and its one of the few things I dont really care to share.

*WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT....

~Bill Clinton? He was a guy, he had a wife who didnt please him. Who cares? Your husband did it too.

~Pre-marital sex? Do what you want, I will only have premarital sex with AJ Hyori or KangTa

~Religion? Um.. your mom.

~Hanson? mmm bop yourself bitch <^>

~Alternative music? Like

~Rap? Like

~Country? Like

~Classical? Like

~Oldies? Like

~80's Music? Like

~Metal? Like

*WHO...

~Makes you laugh the most? Allison XD

~Is the stupidest person you know? Alex and Dylan.

~Who do you have a crush on (non-famous)? Jim and Alex

~Who do you have a crush on (famous)? Daniel radcliffe, Sean Bean, KangTa, and Hyori

~Do you go to for advice? The stars. Actually, I am always the one giving advice it seems. I was blessed with enough knowledge to guide my own path and have yet to ahve to ask for help. Hair wise, boy wise, gay things like that, my friends will do. Oh, and AJ I once asked for advice on how to get rid of flashbacks.

~Do you hate? I have truly hated only twice in my life, My mother and Sami.

~Knows the most about you? AJ

~Has it easier, guys or girls? Either.

~Do you ever save AOL conversations? Alot, actually.

~Who's your favorite person to talk to online? AJ

~Who's your least favorite person to talk to? Dylan.

~Do you save emails? Sometimes.

~How many people are on your buddy list? 253

~When do you usually go online? Always

*WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR...

~Marriage? Daniel Radcliffe XD

~A future family? I want a girl.

~Tonight? Go to bed

~This weekend? See TTT again.

Oh man, Emily is a cool cat.

Did I mention I made an oekaki board for you all to view?
http://dog.oekaki.st/Alicat/

You can draw on it if you want, I loooove it. It's soooo nice to me. The opacities relaly do suck though.





In prgress:


So anyways, you shouldve heard the cry I let out of frustration at Alex's utter stupidity and Mercury's gay as retrogade. Oh man. It ws so cool, if I was a hot guy Id totally have looked sexy. Or sounded that way, like aragorn in the two towers. Only, mine was better.
I hate mercury retrogade, there are very few signs I can stand while we are under it. Obviously Virgo is one of them cause I talked to Emily and she rocks. Really. All I hear from people about her is bad, but she's quite cool. I mean, she put up with me IMing her randomly and being like...



ZombieChickAya: Yer ex boyfriend is so friggin gay
ZombieChickAya: In fact, he's so fucking stupid I came to YOU to tell you how stupid he is.
ZombieChickAya: Actually, I think you're quite cool.
ClashRockDove: which one?
ClashRockDove: alex?
ZombieChickAya: But I don't usually talk to people on the inet I dont really know.
ZombieChickAya: Yeah
ClashRockDove: im guessin this is aya
ZombieChickAya: Yeah
ClashRockDove: ok
ZombieChickAya: Hence my sn
ClashRockDove: well, im just checking... people can be trickey about those kind of things
ClashRockDove: yeah, hes a bit lacking in the personality department
ZombieChickAya: I know ^^
ZombieChickAya: Hahaha
ClashRockDove: hence i broke up with him
ZombieChickAya: No, he's lacking in the I-have-a-brain department
ClashRockDove: hahaha1
ClashRockDove: why?!
ClashRockDove: just cuz he smokes himself into a mindless daze a couple times a week!
ClashRockDove: hah, no real problem there!
ZombieChickAya: No it's not that.
ZombieChickAya: Its his stupidity.
ZombieChickAya: Im like "Yeah well people can get through it with a healthy dose of intellect and wisdom" "That's somewhere where you're a bit lacking" as a joke.
ZombieChickAya: He got all offended and gay.
ZombieChickAya: Gay I use in the derogatory sense, not literally.
ClashRockDove: tho i wondered about that aspect as well sometimes
ClashRockDove: hah
ZombieChickAya: I knew the minute he asked me out that he was gay.
ClashRockDove: haha
ClashRockDove: what exactly did he do?
ZombieChickAya: Well, Im aweful manly.
ZombieChickAya: ^^
ClashRockDove: oh yeah
ClashRockDove: hah, riiiiight
ZombieChickAya: Seriously, I am. I wear boy clothes n stuff.
ZombieChickAya: Sometimes.
ClashRockDove: so!?
ClashRockDove: who doesnt?!
ClashRockDove: theyre more comfortable1!
ClashRockDove: ahh, if i could type, that is
ZombieChickAya: WAYYY more comfortable.
ZombieChickAya: Hahaha.
ClashRockDove: some of that tight, itchy crap they try to pull off and get us girls to wear... uh no... nothin doin!
ZombieChickAya: Agreed. Besides, I have a bit of a stomach pudge I dont particularly care to show off.
ClashRockDove: once again, its better that way!
ClashRockDove: who wants to be rediculously thin!?
ZombieChickAya: Not I!
ClashRockDove: a girls gotta have some meat on her!
ZombieChickAya: I like hobbit size.
ClashRockDove: hobbits are good!
ClashRockDove: minus the hairy feet thing
ZombieChickAya: Indeed.
ZombieChickAya: I know a kid who claims he's a hobbit, he's short and pudgy and has curly hair but lacks the hairy feet.
ZombieChickAya: He's a fraud.
ClashRockDove: ya gotta have the furry feet, what do these people not understand about that?
ClashRockDove: and the logevity of lifespan, but thats another story
ClashRockDove: feet come first
ZombieChickAya: Indeed.
ZombieChickAya: Have you seen the new movie?
ZombieChickAya: Of LOTR?
ClashRockDove: not yet
ClashRockDove: i went to see it while i was in maryland on the only day the roads were clear of snow and it was sold out
ClashRockDove: im thinking next weekend is a good time to go see it
ZombieChickAya: That's terrible!
ZombieChickAya: It's fantastic!
ClashRockDove: it looked like it would be
ZombieChickAya: The soundtrack is brilliant for lotr and Elijah looks sekshi.
ClashRockDove: the last scene in the first one, god thats amazing graphics
ZombieChickAya: Graphics?
ZombieChickAya: You mean on the rocks?
ClashRockDove: its not often tht he doesnt, tho
ClashRockDove: the part on the lake, where they separate
ClashRockDove: with the two rock guys
ClashRockDove: so cool!
ZombieChickAya: Yeah I liked them.
ZombieChickAya: And the birds come out of the eye of one to look realistic.
ZombieChickAya: It's great ^^
ClashRockDove: exactly!
ClashRockDove: im sorry, i dont mean to pry, but what happened with you and alex?
ClashRockDove: it was to my understanding that you were very happy together and i totally expected the relationship to last quite a while.
ZombieChickAya: It did, that was my longest relatioship except that four year one with AJ...
ZombieChickAya: But.. He was gay and I was straight.
ClashRockDove: hahah!
ClashRockDove: those dont tend to work well
ZombieChickAya: I needed more than he could give, and he's a libra.
ClashRockDove: yorue a...?
ClashRockDove: *youre
ZombieChickAya: Cancer/leo
ClashRockDove: oh
ZombieChickAya: I was born on the cusp ^^
ZombieChickAya: What are you?
ClashRockDove: virgo
ZombieChickAya: Thats what I thought!
ZombieChickAya: ^^
ZombieChickAya: Virgos rock
ClashRockDove: why thank you!
ClashRockDove: ive always been a bit envious of leos
ClashRockDove: but thats just me
ZombieChickAya: *is flattered*
ClashRockDove: i have always wnated to be able to say "i am leo, hear me roar"
ZombieChickAya: Awwe
ZombieChickAya: You can say "Im a virgo.. hear me.. um.. be a virgin"
ClashRockDove: ya gotta use that lie sometime, seriously!
ZombieChickAya: I do sometimes, cause Im hokey.
ClashRockDove: that will scare the boys away!
ZombieChickAya: Hahaha
ClashRockDove: hahah!

QAnd so it went from there.

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I actually blame myself for me n Alex breaking up, how un-leo-ly of me. Im so humble. Soon Ill be blaming myself for the lack of oxygen in space.

Ahahaha. I lub Alex, but he REALLY has struck a nerve or two. And he doesnt even care, I dont think he's really even a friend anymore. The other liras on his birthday are cooler than him.

Jeebus. Well.

DID YOU KNOW SAMI IS A LIBRA?! THE ONE GIRL I HAVE FELT PURE, SEETHING HATRED TOWARDS, WITH FLARES OR RAGE POURING INTO MY SOUL AND AN ANGER SO IMMENSE IT COULDVE CRUMBLED BUILDINGS. SHE is a libra! Can you believe that!? I can.. Libras are so defensive and gay.
Cept like... Rochie and Nate and... umm.. anyone else who's a COOL libra.

Virgo's rock, except ones with mental disorders (My mom)

I mean, Jenny is part virgo, so is Frodo, so is AJ, though moreso Jenny and Frodo. Who were born september 22nd. It's amazing how true-to-thier-sign the characters in tolkiens book were. I mean, Nate is totally like Frodo. And I dont know what Aragorn is.. and I guess gandalf doesnt technically have a sign but Im sure itd be aries. Umm JK Rwling is not good with that. Harry is a LIBRA. End of story. HE IS, there is no difference between him and a libra! He is NOT a cancer. Or a leo. And it says he was born in July. He is a LIBRA. I am settled with that.

Well!

Im off to do whatever....
BAI

I am SUCH a boring person. I'v found a liking for pixel art and have been working all day on making a picture from ancanar and here is a capture of what I have done so far...




YEAH! That's what I said. It takes forever to make the colours and put them down pixel by pixel ause what looks like black could be a different shade than the next. Gaaawd >< It'll take me at least a week, since we have school tommorow and everything. It's gunna feel wierd going back to school.

So here are some other pictures Ive worked on over break. (They arent the greatest quality, since uploading them mauls it.)



Hermoine from Harry Potter. Ent she cute? (No.. not really..)



Awwe those colours got messed up. Anyways, random chick.



There's me on my beanbag with my hagrid plushie and my Jenny in my PJs. Lubly.



Dont know how that got in there... scary shit, man...



He had the one ring... and I wanted it. so I ate his finger.



I did this as a request from some girl.. It's hella ugly.. I'd have coloured differently.



Did this a long time ago, best hands Ive ever done.



The most beautiful girl in the world's self portrait... me. God I love myself ^^




Again the most beautiful girl in the world anime style.



Oh my what a cute girl I drew~!



It's not FRODO it's a HOBBIT



OOOOH GREEN ELF IS UGLY.



Look I coloured in oceanography chick!



Awwe look at this old one, I used to colour so cutely!



JENNYYYYYYYYYY UNVEILEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!



Another request for some girl who wanted to be as l337 as me.



How I felt with a cold.



Aya if she was a demented anime character!

AND LAST BUT DEFINATELY NOT LEAST:



JENNY SAYS HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

............. She ditched us. She hasnt even CALLEd at its ten fucking thirty. TEN THIRTY AND NO CALL. I thought you got off around nine?! I thought we were going to karaoke.. great way to ruin my day. fucking GOD. I knew this would happen I shoulda told Kesi to just go to bed. She waited up till ten fifteen for you. We waited, we called at nine fourty five.. Your brother was told to tell you to call. WHERE ARE YOU!?
DONT FUCKING GIVE ME HOPE AND THEN JUST GO BACK ON IT. MY MOM EVEN WANTED TO KNOW WHY WE WERE STILL HOME WHEN SHE CALLED TONIGHT, HOW COULD YOU DOT HIS TO ME?! ITS NOT THAT BUT THAT YOU DIDNT EVEN CALL! I WAS LOOKING FOWARD TO IT IF WE GOT TO GO AND MOST OF ALL HAVING YOU OVER BUT YOU DIDNT EVEN CALL. AT ALL. MY PHONES BEEN PLUGGED IN ALL DAY. YOU DIDNT CALL ONCE. ITS STILL PLUGGED IN FOR YOU TO CALL.




AUUUUUUUUUUGH.

YAEEEEEEE! HAPPY NEW YEAR!





That's Kaldina's New Year gift I made for her. She's riding a jenny-dragon.

So anyyyways. Yesterday Kaldina called at the last minute and said something like "Dude, you are so beautiful and amazing, I want to go to your house and see you for New Years!" I'm like why thank you, Kaldina, I never knew you felt that way but I'd be happy to have you sleep over!"

So that's what we did! She brought a cake and three bottles of varied ciders and we all took a bottle and those were our bottles for the night. So we went and watched some LOTR stuff from the appendices in the extended version, then Im like "Look someone TPed our house!" And it was cool cause someone did indeed TP our hut. So we got in Kaldina's car and we looked around for whoever did it but we couldnt find them. So we were all butt-cold and we came back in and made jokes about Harry Potter n shite. Oh dear god it was funny. Kesi kept mourning the loss of this Frodo picture she had made on the computer that didnt send and was therefore deleted and it was funny cause she kept taking swigs of the cider and.. oh dear I had so much fun.

So then we all passed out and the next morning my mom comes in she's like "WHAT HAPPENED TO OUR HOUSE?" Im like "Someone TPed your house." And she tried to make US clean it up but we're like "It's your house, woman." So she left for palm springs, where she'll be forever BWHAHAHA. So we hopped in Kaldinas car, stalked some car down the road and then went up to AJs where we boguht a shitty breakfast. But lo, it was made up for.

We went to the AJs near Kaldina's house and got some stuff there and talked to mah second mammy. she is sooo kyoote. So then we made a last minute decision to go to Harry Potter. The theatre was really shitty. REALLY shitty. But we saw that and came back and I finally went out and cleaned up the TP. Which wasnt well done AT ALL. They only used four rolls, and to make it disgraceful only covered barely the front plants in our DRIVEWAY area. Like, the way front, they didnt get the back. It was PITIFUL. I will tell the kids on my bus how to do it next time so that my mom has to pay for repairs. Like that one time some kids put shaving cream on our porch, it stained and had to be repaired. I mean, I quite enjoy picking up tp, its good fun when you are bored off your ass.

So then I made Kesi a smoothie and we sat around until that special Id been anticipating on what animals will look like in years to come was on. It was dissapointing, Kesi went to bed halfway into it. So now Ill prolly grab Jenny and go to bed myself. Or Ill read or write a bit before I go to bed. Either way, farewell, Frodo Baggins, I give you the light of aerindil, our most beloved star. Namarie.

Hahaha the commentary is sooo friggin funny. Heyyyy this is a great cd. I forgot how good I think. *sings to Moon Hee Jun* Today I went to take Danny Ahn to the vet and go to the bookstore. We also went to red lobster, mmm. I'm a bit in love with food. So then we went to the vet and they have these cute scottish folds in the waiting room and they are sooo precious, I petted one ^^ Then we went to walmart while waiting and got some fish food for Lloyd, the fish I gave Kesi for Xmas. Then he got Danny, it was soo cute, he was all half awake and his eyes were watery. They like gave him sedatives so they could clip hiis.. OH NO! Oh phew, mom threatened to clip Jenny's nails. 'No!' I says! So Ill clip um later. Anyways he got his nail clipped. Then we went to the bookstore. I got the greatest journal, its red fakey leather and says there and back again.. with a star at the top and its sooo pretty. And umm I got a small stuffed Mrs.Norris. She is precious! Hagrid likes her too. Kesi and I got a photo guide for the two towers, oh man Frodo is cute >< Legolas is sooo good-looking and Aragorn is so sexay. So Kesi got a plush Harry, like my Hagrid, only Harry. He's cool, looks just like the cartoon according to my sister. I dun think so.. She also got a mini journal with Frodo on the front weilding sting. It's blue though so, ick.

And I finished Orochi Blood while I was there! It's really quite good. Messed up, indeed, but quite good. So now I'm listening to Moon Hee Jun and humming along with the parts I dont know etc etc. Kute namaji mai yoooooo (Something like that)

appun jimannnnn surgesso....hamkeeeeeeee (Something like that) *sings herself this song* Wow, Im a great duetist. Hahaha. Hey! Did you know they came out with a new carmex? I got some at the store, it's mint flavored. Soooo cool. I'm trying to figure outy what to write in my bilbo book. Maybe Ill write my story Ive always wanted to.. maybe Ill write an autobiography just like bilbo.... Welp! Either way I'm off!

HE IS SO FUCKING DUMB! .. I never leave the conversations up to put them in ehre, one day I will and show the world his idiocy.

I dont think he's even my friend anymore.... That's sad, I even got him a Xmas gift. I spent good money on that gift. What the hell am I to do with an extra Moon Hee Jun CD? .... KANGPAE! YONG SEOKIE WOULD LOVE ONE! It's already wrapped in the girliest wrapping ever. Totally, itll be sooo friggin funnie. Oh, thatll be a story to tell my kids.

Ok, Im better now.

I just was tinking about how if my Jenny dog didnt lvoe me I'd be so sad. Even if I deserved it, and if she hated me it would hurt me really bad even if I knew I deserved it, sort of like how Kesi and I hate mom. It must be hard being a failure, loosing all of your children cause of one reason or another. I never really think about her side, just mine and how horrible it is to have to put up with her.
I'm always whining about how my mom sucks. And so on. But imagine how she feels. She doesn't know any better, she truly thinks she's an ok mother. HAHAHA. It's pretty sad. I really pity that woman.

Now, on to better things.

Today I went to walgreens then to eat with my aunt and cousin (Who vaguely resembles harry potter) and then to Fry's to return a game but they wouldnt let us return it! So we wanted it switched but the guy bent the box of what he was switching, that dumbass, so it was cool cause we got our revenge n stuff. Then we got the last of the mohicans soundtrack and I began thinking about how I am going to make my life into a movie someday with a good soundtrack like that.

Last night I was thinking.. and.. yknow I dont think Alex even cares about me. Psh. Not only does he make me feel sad when Im around him (like a dementor from harry potter! Ooo! Creepy!) but he also tries to be competitive. Like when he is trying to diss on my vaio-poo. My vaio is almost as uch a pride and joy as my hagrid plushie and my legs.
(Then comes my hair then comes Jenny at the top!)

Yknwo what my mom said today, she says (We were talkign about how she owed us harry potter band aids) she says "I have bad memories of those, very very bad memories" I got very angry, THOSE bad memories!? JESUS. My life must be hell or something because no dear, THAT is not bad. ut thats what got me thinking about how she had to go through like two of her children being disowned by her because of her bad parenting (One of them for that at least.. the other I dont even know why he was disowned anymore)

Well... Thats all I have to say.

I want something to eat but its too late to eat. Maybe Ill have hot chocolate and go to bed. Maybe Ill eat a bowl of cereal.

Agh I feel exhausted.

I am so fucking selfish.
Nevermind